I missed you so much today, i broke down and cried my eyes out for like 5-10 mins. It felt like the day that i found out you passed. That was 5 years ago. The anger, guilt, love, pain all came out at once. I needed to feel your presence so badly at that moment, yet it ceased to exist. I know your gone, your not coming back yet the feelings have been coming on so strong lately like i am first mourning. Your at peace i know.
My day got better after a rough, emotionally spent morning. The Mr. brought me a surprise. A box full of Godiva chocolate truffles & a beautiful pink butterfly that can be hung or set somewhere, he also included a wonderful card. It was just what i needed and it made me feel so special and loved & appreciated. Sometimes in relationships we need a lil extra attention, it was nice to be thought of. In a way it makes you want to do more for that person not because u get gifts but because you feel loved and made special by that person.
In the end, i know he is gone, i miss him daily, the comfort is still needed. but i know i have love, and i am not trying to lose this one.