Sometimes life just knocks you on your ass without you even paying attention. Then when you look up and see what the heck is going on you find yourself in a place where your not sure you wanna be. Then the challenge is trying to get out of that place or deciding if you wanna stay. You can feel so stable and secure then feel like your barely standing on your legs because they are so wobbly.
Pray for strentgh and guidance, ask him to show you the way, its hard though to ask fro help, you wanna handle it all on your own. But you cant, you cant. Find a way out before it sucks you in.